Finding out I was pregnant.

My sweet Mollie girl,
You are here already but I wanted to take a minute and write about my emotions when I found out I was pregnant.  Your dad and I had talked about adding another sweet spirit to our family.  We were SO surprised when we got pregnant within just a few weeks of talking about it!!  I remember just having a "feeling" that I was pregnant.  I remember being so hungry, I couldn't get enough to eat!  That was my first clue.  I just felt it, I knew it!  It as a little bit of a crazy time.  We had just accepted a job in Texas and were leaving shortly to hunt for houses.  I remember with Emily I had taken so many negative pregnancy tests and had gotten so discouraged, so I was holding out as long as I could to take a test with you.  I was planning on taking the test after we returned from Texas (that would have been about a week after my missed period).  I just didn't want to take it and be disappointed, especially when I was already so sure.  Well, being the impatient person that I am....I was in walmart one day and I was in the cosmetics section.  I grabbed a pregnancy test, and my nerves were through the roof!  I quickly grabbed a few other items I needed and headed to the check out.  On my way out of the store I walked right past the bathrooms.  I couldn't resist.  I grabbed the test and hurried into the bathroom.  (Kinda gross, I know, but I just could not wait!!!!!)!  After I took the test, it IMMEDIATELY showed a positive pregnancy test.  I cannot tell you the wave of emotions that ran through me!! I think I even said, "thank you, thank you father in Heaven" out loud in the bathroom  :)  I quickly left the bathroom and I could not stop smiling.  I probably looked a little crazy to some as I rushed to the car.  As soon as I got in the car, the tears came!  Tears of such gratitude!  I said a quiet prayer to thank my father in heaven!  I was so overwhelmed with such a blessed feeling.  I cried all the way home and smiled and laughed!  So many happy emotions.  Dan always comes out to greet me with I get home with groceries (if he's home).  He was home, so he came out to help me take the groceries in.  I immediately showed him the test and his face lit up.  He gave me the biggest hug!  Over the next few days I was in awe at all our family had been blessed with.  I was beyond grateful that we would be welcoming a new baby into our home. !  You were SO WANTED before you even got here!  We could not wait to meet you!  In the next few weeks I started to feel pretty nauseas and tired.  It was nothing like I'd experienced with Braylee or Emily, so I was sure you were going to be a little boy (we were wrong about that :)  It was really hard because we hadn't told the kids, just in case something went wrong.  So I was pretty sick, and the 3 other kiddos had to put up with a pretty lazy mama for a couple of months.  The fatigue went away after a few long months, but the nausea did not.  It subsided quite a bit, but never left completely.  But let me tell you, you were worth every single second of sickness!!!! You are here now as I write this!! Our hearts are beyond full! I will write your birth story next, but just know you are loved beyond anything imaginable!  You are currently in the NICU (I'm writing this on Thanksgiving day, you are 1 week old), and you have 5 people longing to have you home!!! You are loved beyond measure here at home!!!! I have not stopped thanking my father in heaven for your sweet little spirit.  We love you so much our sweet Mollie Jo!